This week I have challenged myself to be brave.
I’ve always been the strong one, the one who knows what to do in every situation. I can handle anything that is thrown at me and people rely on me for that. I am always happy to take a call in the middle of the night, pick someone up no matter what time of day or night, I will borrow cars to drive kilometers to help someone.
I’m the one with the witty response. The comeback to the jerk who’s putting someone down to make themselves feel better, I am forever putting someone else’s emotions first and working to strengthen their self belief. I take time to make sure that the people around me are happy before I check to make sure I’m doing the right thing for myself.
I can fake a smile with the best of them, I can fake it better with most of them. I can put a sparkle in my eye just to make someone else feel better but if I’m honest with myself I know I’m not doing the right thing by me.
Twelve months ago I was 100% sure that I wanted to go into publicity. Spinning and creating larger than life events is what I have a knack for, I can do it with my eyes closed. Lately though I have been giving up opportunities I would have loved to have taken on for the sake of letting someone else have a go. When I’m asked if I mind I flash that smile I’m so good at and say not at all just to not cause a fuss.
Well this is the end now. I’m standing up for me and I’m faking less smiles. I’m going to say no more and be myself again.
Stand back world, You’re going to hear me roar.
Today Song: Roar- Katy Perry